I don’t make New Year’s Resolutions. I don’t because historically, most resolutions fail.
In an epic way.
So I don’t make them.
I also believe that if I am going to try to improve myself, I don’t need the turn of a calendar page to make that decision.
But as the end of 2019 approached, I had an overwhelming sense of unease. And I couldn’t really quite put my finger on it for a long time.
Until I did.
And then I wish I hadn’t.
The fear, the trepidation, the unease was because I was worried that 2020 still will not be the year that things happen for the better. That I still won’t find that perfect guy God has all picked out for me. That I won’t make some huge breakthrough on what it is God wants me to do with my life. That I won’t feel like a success, yet again.
The answer to all of this, that I am still finding it difficult to accept is that no matter what this year brings, God will get me through.
Deep down, I know that I will be just fine, and that even if all of those things do not end up happening this year, God’s perfect plan for my life will still be playing out.
I know that. Of course I know that.
But the longing for all of those things is still there.
So, of course, God has to tap me on the shoulder as I’m reading my Bible this morning.
“Ahem, *cough, cough* this is for you, my dear.”
I was reading Psalms 37. And in Psalms 37, David, yet again, perfectly describes the anguish that we, as humans, often feel. And then he directly follows it up with what we, as Christians should do.
“Hope in the Lord
and keep his way.”
Basically, there is a huge amount of wisdom in Psalms 37. How we shouldn’t look at what evil people (people doing the wrong thing for the wrong reason) who end up succeeding, temporarily, with envy. Not to look at them and wish that we had their successes. Because in the end, their successes will be revealed to be ultimate failures, as they don’t get to share in the eternal prize of Heaven.
It’s difficult to do.
Because we know that their success is a result of evil things. Evil intent. Evil purpose. And often, those people don’t care who they run over to accomplish their goals. But the results of some of those evil things look oh so tempting.
I get it.
But we must keep our eye on the true prize. The prize that gets us eternity in Heaven with our Father.
And until then, keep relying on His strength, guidance, mercy, grace.
And hope in the Lord, and keep His ways.